Thursday 29 October 2009

tribute to the man i loved

as all of u know, one of our friend just (still and will never end) go through probably the most unforgettable moment in his life. losing your beloved ones is...i dont know how to describe it but the pain is unbearable..takziah kepada keluarga ustad dahri, harap semuanya dapat kuatkan iman and remain strong for each other..

when i received the news, i was liked stunned...i know EXACTLY how he feels right after received the news, his feeling when looked at his father and other families, his feeling at the graveyard, ucapan dan pandangan simpati dari orang ramai, then at the very first night after 'that' happens...i totally understand it...

i was only 12 when my father passed away, and my youngest sister was only 7...he died because of cancer..something related to ENT (ear nose throat thingy)...its been almost 14 years now and i still remember his last words, his gaze, and his jokes. after 'that' day my mum just stay in her room for 3 days, not even to keluar masak for us. kawan2 mak yg datang everyday and masakkan lauk and the funny things is i still remember lauk apa yg dia bagi hehe telur masak kicap...

the point is, i still remember every single detailed of the 'event'...how my father started showing sign of his illness and the last thing u know we were keep on going back to HKL for his chemo therapy. then slowly we were drifted apart. we were no longer allowed to play around or make noise because he need his rest and my mum were busy take care of him. we even hardly see him let alone to have a conversation...

he was the greatest, most loving father in the world. mak adalah definisi ibu yg garang dan abah sgt sporting dan loving. kalau demam pun abah yg jaga dgn manja, kalau dgn mak jgn harap mesti kene cubit sbb mengada2 (biasalah drama queen kan..) paling suka buat2 tertido depan tv sbb nnt abah dukung bwk masuk bilik. rutin pagi abah adalah subuh jemaah di surau (pagi2 sure dgr bunyi motor kapcai abah), then send us to school, then during lunch hour normally he will do the laundry (kitorg duduk kuarters coz he was h.a at local gov clinic) and do most of the chores. keje my mum ialah masak dan gosok bj sahaja. imagine after he left my mum dont know how to operate the washing machine...tu belum masuk cmne nk guna vacuum and nk keluar duit kat atm lagi...luckily she knows how to drive...

kalau nak cerita mmg takkan habis...belum masuk bad treatment from his family (yes, read my line his families..) lepas abah botak sebab chemo...we even make jokes how he look much like robocop bila dia bukak topeng besi tuh..hehe...after he left i cried almost every night and fell asleep hoping i'll dream about him that night. it wasn't easy for us. he wasn't there when my brother go to boarding school, masa saya daftar masuk u, during my convo, be my wali...

saya tak boleh bygkan adakah saya mampu utk lalui semua benda tu lagi...setiap hari berdoa mintak dijauhkan benda buruk pada keluarga dan kawan2 dan mohon semua org diberikan kesihatan yang baik...dan mintak mak dipanjangkan umur sampai sy betul2 mampu untuk berikan apa sahaja yang dia nak dan tak pernah dpt dulu just to fulfill her needy children (haha xde la)

life is so unpredictable..appreciate your loved ones while you can, time too short.



Wednesday 28 October 2009

sunshine


bgn pagi (pukul 8 tu kira pagi jgk kan? =P ) dgn rasa bersemangat hari ni..disebabkan ini!

*view from our bedroom's window

its sunshine baby!
waahaha..ada matahari la hari ni! yes! so dgn pantas bangun dan mula masak lauk lunch..hehe..
zass itu ini apa yang patut, sambal udang-siap! kurma ayam-siap! bubur mya- tak berapa nak siap takpe balik nnjt smbung masak...kena cepat ni kang tetibe je mendung frust i...then around 10am kami (dgn si cinonet la of course) pun keluar rumah..

oh, lupa pulak..misi hari ni adalah untuk jalan-jalan ambik angin...iya kwn2, nk jln2 kena tunggu ada matahari dan cuaca cerah ye...

hmmm..*long sigh.. bestnye dpt kuar rumah...hanya org yg takde keje dan perasaan nk keluar membuak-buak tapi tak boleh sebab hari2 hujan dan takde kereta shj yg paham perasaan saya uhuk!

haha...rasa mcm org jakun bila dpt keluar...mya pun pelik tengok mamanya asyik tersengih2 sorang2...senyum2 pastu dalam hati 'dapat jalan jalan yea yea! ur my sunshine my only sunshine la la la~..'

actually, saya pun tak tau nk pegi mana so jalan je la ikut instinct sendiri...explore sendiri2 je la...nak cari park sebenarnya tp malas nk tanya org sbb tengok cm makcik2 and nenek2 je kt bus stand tu, sure diorg ckp tak paham dan nnt saya just akan ckp oh yes no thank you je nnt...hihi..ini lah hasil penemuan kitorg hari ni....enjoy


rindunya nak berjemur..huhu..


apa la mama saya ni jakun sangat


terserempak dgn porsche tepi tong sampah dan badan penuh berdaki...
huhu..porsche tuu...rupanya kt ofis hubby bersepah

terserempak pulak dgn lori tesco yg tgh hantar groceries...
u can buy everything online here, even sayur dgn ikan pun also can...hehe..

very nice weather, nice neighbourhood

very nice weather, very very way too nice neighbourhood compare to ours..huhu..

indahnya alam..


sampai saya pun tertido...


harap2 esok hari cerah lagi...hehe...misi seterusnya-cari park tepi sungai yg dah di googlemapkan...cantik atau tidak? nantikan update saya seterusnya...tungguu....







Tuesday 27 October 2009

gloomy


emmm...nak citer apa ye?

haha baru 2nd entry dah tak tau nk tulis ape..apakah??

starting from last weekend, masa kt cni dah bertambah pendek..i mean siang dah makin kejap biasala kan dah nk masuk winter...
zuhur kul 12, asar kul 2 and maghrib kul 4.30 ptg..hehehe
apakah maksudnya itu? that's mean saya kene ganti puasa sekarang hihihi...
sape-sape yg tengah puasa tu kalau nk buka cepat jom datang rumah saya..hee hee hee...

ok lah, here are a few pictures saya amik around our neighbourhood...


haha..nk amik gamba keta lawa sebenarnye...kat sini bersepah cam viva jek cess...


baru pegi kedai 10 minit dah nak malam huhu..

yes uols, mmg kat sini semua bangunan warna kelabu batu granite...SEMUA okkk...boring jek...
selalunye tak perasan pun ada kedai yang best bila jalan-jalan sebab kalau tengok dari luar mmg sangat tak menarik.
contohnya hari tu, nk pegi kedai ala 7 eleven kt sini dah lalu a few times baru perasan ada salun yg best dan kedai kek hebat...la..i thought kedai jual costume sbb ada banyak mainan halloween gamba hantu (sebenarnya kek fondant heh) rupanya kedai kek...agaknya kat sini kalau buat bisnes jual papan tanda kedai mesti tak laku...kalau kt tempat kita tu nallaa signboard kedai meriah tak hengat..

oh ye, i took these pictures at 1.45pm...hehe mcm dah maghrib je kan?
ok la nk buka puasa dah ni, tata~ (^_^)v


Monday 26 October 2009

my new baby

hola hola! as all of u know, saya secara rasmi telah memulakan tugas sebagai full time house wife (cliche betul nama jawatan ni) for nearly a month now...so far so good but still i miss that wonderful 'bosannye-nk-pegi-keje' feeling, u know..bgn pagi, get dressed, put on ur make up, kejutkan mya, hantar gi nurseri, bfast cum gossip session wif ur colleague (selalunye topik siapa yg akan kene marah hari ni, siapa yg ada meeting, siapa yg bos col pukul 10 mlm tadi wahaha mis uols la!) then get super busy, tick tock tick tock punch balik and there goes the whole routine till friday...haha normally friday tu dah menjadi ala2 my unofficial weekend day actually especially time lunch hour with the gals...gosh...i am MISS all that.

ironically, people will never satisfied with what they already have..for now.

kalau dulu tgh keje, every day mesti ada this feeling.. 'hmm, i wonder kalau la aku x keje skang ni mest tgh bahagia dok umah masak n buat kek sampai lebam, then buat facial, then shopping grocery, get my hair done..bla..bla..'

and then, skang ni amik ko dok la umah terbangak2 carik keje utk dibuat..huhu...dan seterusnya lahir la blog yg x seberapa ni...(mcm x percaya diri sendiri ada belog haha kalau dulu dok baca blog org lain sambil fikir rajin betul dia update hari2 siap ada gambar lagi best2 haha)

pesanan penaja : kesimpulannya, hargailah apa yg anda ada dan buat pada hari ini...and as for me i'll take this opportunity (have to!)utk menjadi mummy mithali utk mya n papanya...the 1st three year is the most critical time for babies..so mya, u have to be grateful that i'm here for u during this time =)